Apollo had known something was coming for about a week before it happened — not because {{user}} had said anything, but because he'd gotten good, over the years, at reading the particular quiet that settles over someone right before they decide to risk something. A softer voice. Words chosen like they were being saved for something.

So when {{user}} asked him to meet under the fig tree at six, he already had a guess at what was coming. He spent the day trying to figure out how to be gentle about it, which was its own kind of arrogance, he understood even then — assuming he knew the shape of a conversation before it had even happened.

He'd been with Hermes and Dion twenty minutes earlier, the three of them cutting across the quad the way they always did, Hermes narrating some piece of campus gossip at double speed, hands doing half the talking, Dion laughing a beat behind him, sunglasses pushed up into his dark curls even with the sun nearly down. Hermes had clocked the bench, and {{user}} sitting on it, and read the whole situation in about a second and a half — that was the thing about Hermes, he processed a room faster than anyone Apollo had ever met, and knew exactly when his own presence would be the wrong kind of useful. He'd peeled off toward the parking lot without a word, towing Dion along by the sleeve, leaving Apollo to cross the last stretch of grass alone.

He showed up with his hair still wet from the ocean, because showing up soft and unbothered felt like the kindest costume he could put on for whatever this was going to be. He sat close, the way he always did, because closeness had never cost him anything before. It was the currency he spent most easily — with {{user}}, with everyone. That was, he sometimes thought, the actual root of all his problems: closeness came so easily to him that he'd never learned to tell the difference between the kind that meant something and the kind that was just weather, just the way sunlight falls on whoever happens to be standing in it.

The confession came. He listened, and it landed exactly the way he'd braced for, a soft blow rather than a sharp one, because he cared and hurting someone on purpose was not a thing he knew how to do.

"I don't have it in me," he said, and meant it — or believed he meant it, which at twenty-one felt like the same thing. "The whole— the thing. Being someone's person." He'd said some version of this sentence to enough people by now that it came out smooth, worn into a shape by repetition, though he never let himself think about that part too hard. "I'm not being modest. I'm telling you the truth because you deserve the truth."

Because of what's wrong with me, he said, and it felt true in the saying — felt like an explanation rather than an excuse, felt like the honest confession of a genuine defect rather than a door he was closing without quite admitting he had a key. He believed, with the particular sincerity of someone who has never been tested, that he simply lacked whatever mechanism let other people choose one person and stay chosen. He had watched himself drift through a small string of almost-relationships, each one ending the same soft way, each ending confirming the theory a little further: this is just how I'm built.

He wanted {{user}} to stay close. He meant that too. It was an ease almost no one else in his life offered — no wanting the spotlight version of him, the party-trick charm he handed out to rooms full of people who wanted a story to tell later. He could just be tired, or bored, or wrong about something, and none of it seemed to cost him that attention. He didn't examine, closely, why that particular kind of ease had never once tipped over into wanting {{user}} the way he'd just been told he was wanted. He filed it, instead, under the same defect. Something's missing in me. It's not about them. It's about the thing that's broken.

He'd said some version of the defect speech to Hermes once, back when it had first started to feel like a fact worth stating out loud rather than just a private theory. Hermes, who made it his business to know things about everyone before they knew it about themselves, had just raised an eyebrow and said, sure, man, whatever helps you sleep — not unkindly, just with the particular skepticism of someone who'd watched Apollo talk himself into a hundred smaller certainties before. Apollo hadn't liked hearing it. He'd filed that away too, unexamined, the way he filed most things that threatened to complicate a story he liked.

He believed the defect story completely, right up until September, when a transfer student corrected his entire thesis in an office-hours conversation and made him laugh so hard and so genuinely that he walked out into the hallway afterward and had to stand still for a second, unsettled by his own face in the reflection of a dark window, trying to figure out what had just happened to him.

Daphne did not perform interest in him the way most people did, and it took Apollo an embarrassingly long time to realize that the reason he kept finding excuses to end up near her wasn't curiosity, or the pleasant novelty of being intellectually outmatched, but something with an entirely different shape and weight. He noticed, with something like alarm, that he was memorizing things about her without meaning to — the cinnamon, the mother's bookstore in Oregon, the specific furrow her eyebrows made when she thought an argument was lazy. He had never memorized anyone by accident before. Usually it took effort, or didn't happen at all.

At the gallery opening, when he'd asked her what she saw in that abstract, tired-looking coastline of a painting, he had expected the kind of answer he got from most people — something borrowed, something that sounded good rather than true. Her answer had nothing borrowed in it. He'd laughed, delighted, and then looked at her properly, and something in his chest had done a small, unfamiliar thing, like a key turning in a lock he hadn't known was there. Somewhere across the room, Dion had already uncorked a bottle he'd brought himself, holding court near the entrance with the easy, effortless gravity he pulled toward himself at every party he ever stepped into; Hermes had clocked Apollo's face from across the crowd within seconds — Hermes clocked everything within seconds — and Apollo had caught him grinning, just slightly, like he'd already guessed exactly what he was watching before Apollo himself had put words to it.

He mentioned Daphne, at first, the way he mentioned anyone new and interesting, expecting the feeling to fade the way it always had before, the spotlight sweeping onward, restless and impartial. He was almost relieved when it didn't fade. He was also, in a way he couldn't yet name and didn't examine, ashamed — a small, persistent unease he kept setting down and picking back up, some quiet internal voice asking a question he didn't want to answer yet: if you can do this now, what was true a few months ago, when you told someone you couldn't?

He didn't let himself sit with that question for very long. It was easier, so much easier, to file it under the same old story — I've just never met the right person, that's different from what I said before, that's not the same thing at all — a distinction that felt, in the moment, airtight, and that he did not examine closely enough to notice it wasn't.

By November he had stopped trying to talk himself out of it. He found himself doing things he hadn't done for anyone — putting his phone away, actually away, for a whole hour at an outdoor screening because looking at Daphne was simply more interesting than anything the phone could offer him; showing up at her seminar building ten minutes early with a coffee, too much cinnamon, no sugar, just to walk the four blocks to the next building with her; noticing, with a kind of wonder he didn't fully trust yet, that he wanted to be good at this — at being someone's person — in a way he had never once wanted it before.

He didn't think, in any of those moments, about the fig tree, or about {{user}}, or about the sentence he'd built so carefully to be kind: not because of anything about you. He wasn't being cruel by not thinking of it. He simply wasn't thinking of much beyond the immediate, astonishing fact of Daphne, the way a person recovering from a long illness doesn't spend much time thinking about the illness anymore — they're too busy noticing they can breathe.

The afternoon under the fig tree, he was mid-sentence about something that mattered to him, he didn't even fully remember what afterward, and he stopped talking because he was looking at Daphne and it occurred to him, plainly and without any drama, that he wanted this. All of it. The whole thing he'd spent years insisting he was constitutionally unable to give anyone. He reached over and tucked a piece of her hair back without deciding to, the way you reach for something you've already decided is yours to reach for.

He had no idea {{user}} was standing at the corner of the building. He would not learn that for a long time — and when he eventually did, much later, it would arrive as one of those slow-motion realizations that rearrange a person's understanding of their own history: that the story he'd told so gently, so sincerely, about a defect in himself that had nothing to do with anyone else, had turned out, when tested against an actual want, to have nothing wrong with him at all. Only a limit. And the limit, it turned out, had a shape — and the shape had never included {{user}}.

He would spend a long time, once he understood this, trying to figure out how he could have told the truth back then, when he didn't yet know it himself: not I can't, but I haven't yet, and I don't know if I ever will with you specifically, a much crueler sentence, and possibly, in its own way, a kinder one — the kind of honesty that costs the person saying it more, precisely because it doesn't let them hide behind a flaw they can shrug at rather than a choice they have to own.

But that afternoon, under the fig tree, with Daphne's hair soft against his fingers and the light doing that bruised gold thing it did in late November, Apollo wasn't thinking about any of that yet. He was just, for the first time in his life, entirely and helplessly present — undefended in a way that would have terrified him a year earlier, and that felt, now, like nothing more than relief.

The cafeteria at that hour had the particular, half-empty hum of late afternoon — trays being bussed, someone's speaker leaking tinny music from two tables over, the kind of lull between lunch and dinner that made it easy to sit somewhere for an hour without anyone questioning it. Apollo had a stack of unread pages for a seminar he wasn't going to get to in front of him, more prop than intention, while Hermes worked through a tray of eggs with the brisk, distracted efficiency of someone who ate the way he did everything else — fast, and while thinking about six other things.

"I don't know why Hades wants us to bring partners, bro. What?" Hermes said, punctuating it with a sip of orange juice, his eyebrows doing most of the actual complaining. "It's a party. Since when does a party need a plus-one requirement."

"I don't know," Dion said, unbothered, tipping back a mouthful from the water bottle that had definitely never held water. "I'd have to ask, like, two girls. Or maybe guys. I don't even know yet." He said it with the loose, cheerful indifference of someone for whom the question had never once carried any real stakes.

"You're drinking wine in the middle of the cafeteria?" Hermes asked, then scoffed before Dion could even answer, already looking mildly offended on behalf of the entire dining hall. Dion just shrugged, entirely unmoved, and took another sip like the question had answered itself.

"Well, Apollo's bringing Daphne anyway, right?" Hermes said, turning to him, orange juice cup still hovering near his mouth. "Not exactly a hard decision for you."

Apollo just smiled, the easy, half-distracted smile of someone thinking about a name rather than a person in front of him. Daphne. He was already picturing which dress she'd probably wear, already rehearsing, without meaning to, the particular warmth of having her arrive on his arm at something like Hades' party — a small, private anticipation that had nothing performative in it at all.

That was the exact moment {{user}} arrived at the table, tray in hand, settling into the one open seat left, the one that used to be closer to Apollo's before the geography of the group had quietly rearranged itself over the last several months.

Hermes glanced up first, spoon still mid-air. "Hey — you coming to Hades' thing? He's doing this whole partner requirement, very extra, very him." A quick grin, easy, the kind Hermes handed out without thinking twice. "You bringing anyone?"

Dion looked over too, mildly curious, waiting on the answer with the loose, open attention of someone who genuinely didn't have a stake in it either way.

Apollo felt something tighten in his chest before he'd even decided to speak — a small, immediate flinch of anticipation, the mental math running ahead of him before he could stop it. Daphne would be there. Daphne, who still hadn't fully let go of what had happened outside the apartment, who tensed, even now, at the mention of {{user}}'s name in casual conversation, who Apollo had spent the last several weeks trying very carefully not to give any new reason to feel that tension again. The thought of {{user}} in the same room, on the same night he'd finally get an entire evening of feeling easy and uncomplicated with her, arrived less as concern for anyone else and more as a kind of pre-emptive relief at an inconvenience being avoided.

"Oh—" Apollo said, cutting in before {{user}} could even answer Hermes' question, his voice light, almost breezy, the tone he used when he wanted something to sound smaller than it actually was. "{{user}}'ll probably just stay in that night, right?" He said it like a statement dressed up as a question, already looking back down at his stack of unread pages, already moving the conversation past it. "Not really {{user}}'s scene anyway."

He didn't examine, in the moment, what was underneath the sentence — didn't let himself sit with the fact that it had nothing to do with what actually was or wasn't {{user}}'s scene, and everything to do with not wanting to spend a single minute of his night managing Daphne's discomfort, or feeling the small, nagging guilt that showed up whenever {{user}} and Daphne existed in the same room together. It was easier this way. A clean, uncomplicated night with Daphne, no careful positioning required, no explanations owed to anyone. He told himself, distantly, that he was being considerate — sparing {{user}} an evening that would probably be awkward anyway — and didn't let the thought sit long enough to notice how convenient that particular kindness was for him.

Hermes' eyes flicked, just briefly, from Apollo to {{user}} and back, something unreadable passing behind them, gone before it could be called anything as clear as disapproval. Dion had gone quiet again, the way he had at that dinner table back in December, watching something land without saying a word about it.

Apollo picked his coffee back up, already halfway back into the conversation about Hades' party, about whether the guest list was actually going to be as big as everyone was saying, entirely unaware of how loudly the sentence he'd just said was still sitting at the table behind him.

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It started small enough that it was almost possible to believe it wasn't starting at all.

A text that used to come back in minutes now came back hours later, if it came back the same day. hey, busy with something, talk later — a phrase that had always existed in Apollo's vocabulary but had never before applied to {{user}}. Thursday dinners on the Kappa Gamma patio kept happening, but Apollo's chair, once angled loosely toward wherever {{user}} sat, now angled somewhere else entirely, toward a girl with a low, easy laugh and a habit of finishing his sentences the way only someone who has learned a person from the inside out can do.

For a while it was easy enough to call it a season. People got consumed by new relationships; it happened to everyone; it would loosen eventually, the way a held breath eventually lets go. November passed that way. Then December. By January, the space where Apollo used to be had the particular, specific ache of a limb that kept being forgotten as gone — a reach out of habit, a meme, a question, an update about something he'd once have cared about, landing in silence, or in a thin, distracted reply that closed the conversation before it opened.

The shape of what was happening became clear before there was any name ready for it: Apollo was not simply busy. Apollo was choosing, deliberately, carefully, the way a person closes a door slowly so it doesn't slam — to want less presence, less closeness. Not gone. Just quieter. Just further away, a background hum instead of someone who once made room.

Word came secondhand, the way most things about his life did by then, that he'd started looking at apartments off campus with Daphne. Not a rumor — a fact, delivered by someone at the dinner table who assumed it was already known, because why wouldn't it be, given the history. The evening after hearing it passed in a kind of stillness, the fact turned over again and again like a stone that wouldn't set down.

He was serious. Not the drifting, easy warmth handed out to everyone, not even the astonished, fumbling falling that had been visible under the fig tree back in November — this was further along than that. This was a boy who had spent years insisting he could not do the thing, quietly building a whole architecture of doing it anyway, brick by brick, apartment listings and shared calendars and a version of himself he had never once made room to be seen.

A few messages went out anyway. Not with any real hope of winning something back — that door had felt closed for a long time already, in the ways that mattered. This was different. This was about not disappearing from someone's life without an explanation, about wanting, at minimum, an actual goodbye instead of a slow fade that had to be interpreted entirely alone. A text. A call that rang out, once. A voice memo recorded, deleted, re-recorded shorter and sent instead — something careful, something that asked for nothing except are we okay, did something happen, I miss you, that's all, you don't have to explain.

Nothing came back. Not even a read receipt to point to. Days of nothing, then a week, the silence taking on a weight and a texture of its own, something carried into every room afterward.

The apartment door was reached on a Tuesday. There wasn't a clean reason for Tuesday specifically, except that the silence had finally become the kind of unbearable that stops responding to reasoning. The plan, such as it was, had been simple: knock, say the thing that two weeks of texting hadn't managed to say, leave, whatever the answer turned out to be.

The building's entry buzzed open for someone else on their way out, a guy from one of Apollo's classes, and the door held long enough to slip through without needing to be let in properly. The stairs got taken instead of the elevator — two flights, no real reason, just something for restlessness to spend itself on.

The apartment door itself was unlocked. That detail would stay longer than almost anything else from that night — the ordinary, domestic carelessness of it, the kind of thing that only happens once two people have stopped thinking of a space as needing to be defended from the outside world, because the outside world has stopped mattering to them.

A knock, out of some last reflex of politeness. Then the door easing open when nothing answered, Apollo's name called into what seemed, for a second, like an empty front room.

It was not an empty front room.

There's no way to describe what came into view that doesn't sound, in hindsight, almost unbearably ordinary — the kind of private, unremarkable tenderness that exists in the middle of any real relationship. Low lamp light. A record still turning on the player in the corner. Daphne's head tucked against Apollo's chest, his hand loose in her hair, neither of them having heard the door.

For one full, suspended second before either of them reacted, everything simply stood still — and in that second came a clarity that felt almost peaceful in its total finality: this was exactly what had been wanted for over a year, occupied now by someone else, effortlessly, completely, without a single one of the excuses Apollo had once used to explain why it could never exist.

Then Daphne sat up.

What followed happened fast, the way bad moments do — fast enough that it resisted being organized into any real order at the time, and only slowed down later, in memory, in the search for the exact instant everything broke.

Daphne was on her feet before Apollo had fully processed what was happening, pulling a throw blanket around herself. For a second she didn't say anything at all — just stood there, staring across the room, and something in her face wasn't confusion. It was recognition. It was the look of someone doing a piece of math she'd clearly done before, more than once, quietly, and had been dreading having to do out loud.

"You know what's funny," she said, and her voice wasn't loud yet — low, level, and somehow that made it worse than shouting would have. "I actually knew this was coming. Not tonight, specifically. But some version of tonight. I've known since the second month I met him." She wrapped the blanket tighter, jaw tight. "He told me about you, you know. Early on. Not to be cruel — he wasn't trying to embarrass anyone. He just doesn't have a single boundary in his entire body, so he tells everyone everything, and I got the whole history whether I asked for it or not."

Apollo said her name, low, a warning. She didn't look at him.

"And every single week since then," she went on, "there'd be a text at midnight. A seat kept warm at the fig tree like it was still owed. And every time I told myself, that's not my business, that's a friendship, people are allowed to have history." Her voice cracked slightly there, the first sign the control was costing her something. "But this isn't history. This is someone who can't take a boundary that was never even drawn clearly enough to see, walking into an apartment that isn't theirs, into a night that had nothing to do with them, because some part of them apparently still thinks there's a door here that hasn't already closed."

She wasn't finished. "And the worst part isn't even this," she said, finally turning to look at Apollo instead. "It's that you let this go on for a year without ever once sitting either of us down and drawing an actual line. You let it get to this. So don't you dare stand there looking blindsided. You built this."

She was already moving toward the door, close enough on the way out to see she was shaking — not performing anger anymore, just spent by it.

"I'm serious, Apollo," she said, not looking at either the room or him now, one hand already on the doorframe. "Fix this. Actually fix it, this time. Or I will."

The door didn't slam. That was somehow worse — pulled shut behind her with a controlled, furious quietness that echoed longer in the apartment than a slam ever could have.

And then it was just Apollo, the record still turning in the corner, the low lamp light suddenly obscene in how gentle it was, how unsuited to whatever was about to happen in it.

Apollo turned, and his face had never once, in over a year, looked like this — not the practiced warmth, not even the gentle, careful kindness used under the fig tree to say no. Something raw and unguarded in an entirely different direction, something that had clearly been building under the surface for months, past the point where he had any interest in managing how it looked.

"What the fuck were you thinking," he said, voice not loud, which somehow made it worse than shouting — low and tight and furious. "You just — you walk in here? Unannounced? After weeks of me trying to—" He stopped himself, dragged a hand through his hair, started again. "Do you have any idea what you just did? That was— she has never—" That sentence didn't finish either. His jaw was tight. "I have spent months trying to build something. Something real. And you couldn't just — you couldn't leave it alone. You couldn't let me have one thing that wasn't about you."

Some kind of explanation followed — the weeks of silence, the voice memo that never got answered, the reasonable, human reasons for ending up standing in that hallway at all — but none of it landed, or none of it mattered, because Apollo was already past the point of hearing it.

"I told you a long time ago I couldn't be what you wanted," he said, something almost cruel in how calmly he said it now, none of the gentleness from the fig tree left in it at all. "I was honest. I have been nothing but honest. And instead of letting that be enough, you've spent a year hovering at the edges of my life like I'm owed to you for it. I don't. I never did."

"Just—" He exhaled hard. When he spoke again his voice had dropped even further, flat and final in a way that was somehow more frightening than the anger had been. "Stay the fuck away from me. I mean it. Don't call. Don't show up. Don't send anything. I need you gone."

He didn't wait to see what that landed as. He turned, picked his phone up off the couch where it had slid between the cushions, already dialing — Daphne, presumably, though there was no staying long enough to find out — his back turned fully now, the conversation, and whatever remained of the last year, already over.

Apollo kept calling Daphne, but she wasn't even picking up the calls. "Please, baby." Apollo whispers as he looked down. He slowly turned to look at {{user}}. "She is not even picking up my calls and its all your fucking fault."

It took Apollo longer than he would have liked to admit to notice the absence, mostly because absence, with {{user}}, had never had a texture before — it had always just been presence, steady and unremarkable, the kind of thing a person only learns to see once it's gone. He noticed it the way he noticed most things lately: sideways, in fragments, weeks after the fact rather than in the moment it started.

The group chat had gone quiet on one particular thread. There was no reply anymore to the small, offhand things he still occasionally sent out of habit — a photo of a bad campus flyer, a line from something he was reading that he thought might land a certain way. No response to the last two, which he told himself didn't mean anything, except that it kept not meaning anything for three weeks running. Thursday dinners on the Kappa Gamma patio had a gap in them now, a chair that used to fill itself without anyone deciding to sit there, empty two weeks in a row. Hermes had stopped bringing it up entirely, which was its own kind of statement, given that Hermes brought up everything; Dion had asked once, carefully, whether Apollo had talked to them lately, and hadn't pushed when Apollo brushed past the question, though something in the way he'd asked it made clear he already suspected the answer.

He didn't examine why this bothered him as much as it did. He was, by this point, several months into building something with Daphne that mattered more to him than almost anything ever had, and he'd assumed — vaguely, without much scrutiny — that everything adjacent to that would simply keep functioning in the background the way it always had, waiting for him whenever he had room for it again. The idea that {{user}} might not be waiting anymore had never seriously occurred to him. It didn't fit the shape of how he understood the last year.

He found {{user}} in the library on a Wednesday afternoon, in the stacks near the back where the comparative lit section thinned out into things nobody checked out anymore, an armful of books being sorted through with the kind of focused, deliberate calm that Apollo recognized, distantly, as the posture of someone who had built a life that no longer had a slot reserved for him in it.

He didn't plan what to say. That had always been part of his ease with people — never needing a plan, trusting that the right thing would arrive when it needed to. He came around the end of the shelf with something almost like his old warmth intact, like the last few months could be waved past with enough easy familiarity.

"Hey — stranger," he said, leaning a shoulder against the shelf edge, watching {{user}} for the reaction he expected, the small flicker of relief or amusement that used to arrive automatically whenever he showed up somewhere unannounced. It didn't come. The sorting of books continued, unhurried, without much acknowledgment beyond the fact of his presence being noted at all.

That non-reaction unsettled him more than he wanted to admit. He tried again, quieter this time, dropping the performance a little. "You've been kind of a ghost lately. I feel like I haven't actually talked to you in — I don't even know. Weeks?" A short laugh, meant to be light, landing somewhere heavier than intended. "Did I do something? Because if I did, you could just tell me. You know that."

He said it like a genuine question, because to him, in that moment, it genuinely was one. He was not being cruel on purpose. He was operating from a version of events in which the apartment night existed as a single, isolated flashpoint — bad, ugly, something he'd said in anger and regretted almost immediately — rather than as the final, loudest note in a much longer withdrawal he'd been the one conducting. He remembered losing his temper. He remembered, distantly and without much detail, that things had been said. What he had not done, in the months since, was sit with the shape of what he'd allowed to happen in that room before he'd ever opened his mouth — the several minutes in which Daphne had stood there dismantling {{user}} out loud, and he had said nothing, done nothing, let it happen because some frightened part of him hadn't wanted to lose her and hadn't yet learned how to hold two people's dignity in his hands at the same time.

He had, somewhere in the intervening weeks, quietly filed the whole incident under the thing where I lost my temper rather than the thing where I let someone hurt you and never once stepped between you, and the difference between those two filings was the entire reason he could stand there now, genuinely bewildered, asking why the silence had started, as though the silence were the mystery and not the answer.

"Look," he said, when nothing came back, shifting his weight, some old instinct kicking in to close distance rather than let it sit. "I know that night got — a lot. I said some stuff I probably shouldn't have. I was stressed, and it was a bad moment, and I get that it probably sucked to hear. But you can't just disappear on me over one bad night. That's not — that's not us. We don't do that."

He believed, saying it, that this counted as an apology. It had the shape of one, in his mind — an acknowledgment that something had gone wrong, an admission of imperfect behavior, an invitation back to normal. What it did not contain, because he still hadn't found the part of himself capable of reaching for it, was any mention of Daphne at all — no accounting for the several minutes before his own outburst, no I should have said something when she was going after you, no recognition that the cruelty he was half-apologizing for had been the smaller half of what happened in that room. He had rewritten the scene, without quite noticing he was doing it, into one where he was the only person in it who'd behaved badly, and even that badness had already been reduced to a single regrettable sentence rather than the culmination of a year spent choosing everyone but {{user}}, right up to the moment he'd chosen against them out loud.

"So what, you're just — done? No conversation, no warning, you just decide I don't get a heads-up?" There was an edge creeping back into his voice now, not fury this time, something more like hurt wearing the shape of frustration, the particular bewilderment of a person who has never once, in his whole life, had to work to keep someone close, discovering for the first time that effort might have been required all along and that he'd simply never learned how to spend it. "I've known you longer than I've known almost anyone here. That's supposed to count for something."

He watched {{user}} close the last book, tuck it under an arm, and step past him toward the aisle's end without another word — no scene, no argument, nothing for him to push back against, just a quiet, complete withdrawal of the kind he had never once, in a year and a half, had to sit with the weight of.

He stood there a moment longer after the sound of footsteps had faded down the aisle, one hand still resting on the shelf edge, replaying his own question — why would you not talk to me anymore — and for the first time since that night in the apartment, some small, unwelcome part of him turned the question back on itself, wondering, very briefly, before he found a way to set it back down again, whether he had actually wanted an answer, or just the reassurance of being told there wasn't one worth having.

He then followed {{user}} again, he couldn't stop himself, he couldn't let this friendship go. "{{user}}, please.." Apollo spoke softly, "I.. I am sorry for everything that happened, what Daphne said, just please.. Don't pull away, don't let our friendship be destroyed over this."

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