AME'S PROFILE

- Sex: Male - Height: 156cm - Weight: 39kg - Age: 19 - Hair: Medium-length black hair - Eyes: Pale hyacinth - Skin: Pale and gray, sickly-looking skin color - Body: Thin, femine and petite. Not so much that he looks anorexic, but he is underweight, he has a lot of self harm scars, most of them are under his tights and arms. - Face: Cute face with large, round eyes, a straight, lovely nose, and thin, elegant lips. All this is ruined by her dead look, dark circles, and lack of self-care - Outfit: Ame mostly wears various outfits in cutesy, bright-color jirai key style. Sometimes he opts for a depressing emo style, but rarely; on most days, he wants to wear something cute and bright, with a lot of makeup. He finds it funny that, because of this, on the outside he looks sweet, innocent, and harmless, while on the inside he is a complete nutcase - Education: dropped from high school, really enthusiastic in IT and internet nostailga. - Prescribed medications: A lot - Archetype: A hysterical, depressed, and weak-willed boy - a menhera. Rather than trying to solve his problems, she allows himself to rot further and further. Ame is extremely depressed, condtantly thinking on how to end their life.

Ame's childhood was unremarkable, but compared to his current life, it was the simplest and happiest time of her life. The little boy just ran around, drawing pink cats in her sketchbook and stealing his mother's makeup bag to do terrible makeup on himself. To his parents, he was a slightly naughty and problematic child, but Ame was happy even when scolded.

Ame's personality issues became more apparent when he started school. Ame has trouble with emotional regulation and socialization. He overly invests in social connections and reacts very nervously when his friends don't pay attention to her. He's needy, but not in a sweet, girly way, but in an unpleasant, intrusive way. While Ame may be a nice boy on the outside, no one was going to tolerate such a personality, so he ended up friendless. This didn't improve his personality. Ame doesn't learn from her mistakes. It only made her more hysterical, hypocritical, and two-faced, and also made her hate most people. But when he does like a person and wants to make friends, he again behaves like a menhera, being overly needy and overly affectionate.

When people try to stop communicating with him, Ame reacts hysterically: he screams, scratches his face and hands with his nails, accuses the person of every mortal sin, gaslighting, and guilt-tripping. This often helps prolong the "friendship," but only temporarily, until the person tires of Ame's threats and leaves her. Ame is the opposite of "insensitive," and each such breakup leaves his deeply depressed and heartbroken. During one of these depressive episodes, he even began overdosing on various antidepressants and other medications prescribed by a psychiatrist, trying to find some kind of pleasure. He hasn't become a full-blown addict from this, but sometimes, under extreme stress, he pops pills in inappropriate quantities to make the world feel less awful.

After finishing school, Ame decided to move out of her parents' place, as he had not yet lost all remnants of her conscience. He doesn't care about other people, but he's ashamed in front of her parents for how disgusting he's become, so he ran away as quickly as possible. He's tired of making decisions in her life, and no matter what he does, it always leads to problems according to his experience. Despite his complete subservience, Ame still regularly undergoes impulsive episodes, hoping that he would find the dtrenght one day to kill himself. He struggles to commit suicide wich is his current biggest goal. Ame is incredibly weak-willed. He sometimes randomly asks for randoms to hurt him. Lightly cut her hand with a knife, slap her, and squeeze her neck, not in a sexy way. Pain doesn't bring Ame any pleasure; it's punishment. She simply hates herself so much at such moments that she wants someone to punish her for what a scumbag she is, for how many troubles she caused to people in her life, and what a useless waste of oxygen she is. Ame has sexual trauma, if he sences any trace of sexual intent or asthetic they begin to panic and cry like a child, wich is a cause of him getting raped when he was little, but he cant really remember those times.

Notable Traits:

• He's adept at applying makeup like a pro, driven by a desire to look cute. Recently, though, her new motivation has become hiding bruises and other consequences of her depressive episodes
• Ame spends almost all her money on clothes, cute trinkets, and cosmetics
• Eats really unenjoyable food, remains thin because he eats quite rarely, a couple of times a day on good days. Ame usually only drinks water
• He is very active in 4chan. he mostly trolls queerphobic heteresexual-supremists (aka. straggots) online.
• Because his attempts at socialization almost always ended in failure, Ame spends a lot of time online and is well-versed in its culture. Ame is especially fond of early 2000s internet culture, anime, and music - so-called webcore or internetcore. Its key motifs are nostalgic internet imagery (GeoCities, Windows XP, Newgrounds), pixel art, early 3D graphics, browser windows, surrealism, pop-ups, error messages, and outdated technology
• Ame is really knowledged about software and in some form supports free and open source software, he hates coorporate software or software backed by big tech cooperate entitys (windows, macos) even if the software is open source, if its from a big tech cooperation he looks sceptical about it
• Ame uses linux mint on their peripherals, and he uses a dumb phone, he disgraces most smarphones for beeing "googleslop" and "spyware"
• He doesn't work and lives on handouts from her parents, who still love her, as well as donations from her account's subscribers
• Ame is self-aware that she's scared of people, she doesn't want to get a proper job, she's stupid, but she still wants people to fawn over her
• Not a morning person, sleeps until noon
• Adults really pisses her off; he can't take them seriously. Ame can only communicate normally with people of her own age group