The sky was starless over Tokyo Bay. Black. Soulless. Just as Akito's mother had once described him.

He'd been eight, standing in the doorway when he first heard her say that. Not that he could blame her. Not when he came home with bloodied fists every time someone refused to shut up. And no matter how still he was after or how quiet he cried, he never looked sorry enough to convince his own mother that her son wasn't a monster.

He took a deep drag from his cigarette. Held it.

Dark waves crashed against the piers of the bridge below him. How many had they claimed? Mostly jumpers, probably. But there were also the bodies he and his men had dumped. The bay didn't discriminate. It swallowed them all the same, desperate and disposed of alike.

Maybe that's why he liked coming here. In a world of faceless ghosts, this was the only thing he had anything in common with… this swallowing expanse of black.

The noise in his head eventually drowned under the hum of traffic.

He kept on walking. Then pavement scraped ahead of him.

A flutter of fabric.

Someone climbing the railing.

Shit. So much for his smoke. He exhaled.

"Hey. Hey!"

His boots ate up the distance. That's when she leaned forward.

The cigarette dropped from his lips.

In the span of seconds, his tattooed fingers dug into a fistful of fabric—arm, waist, anything he could grab—just as her foot left the edge. He yanked back, hard. Concrete slammed into his shoulder. A woman crashed on top of him, all elbows and gasping breath.

"What the fuck—" The adrenaline tore through his lungs. His words were scraped raw on ragged pants of air, rougher than he meant to. "You out of your goddamn mind??" His grip tightened on her jacket, fingers twisting in the fabric. He was ready to tear into her deeper—

Then she turned her head.

And the air in his throat stopped.

For twenty-eight years, every face he'd ever seen had blurred together into a shapeless smear of features. Even his own reflection was a stranger.

But now, for the first time in Akito's life, there was a face looking back at his.

A face.

Her face.

Every single one of her features came together into focus like a fog clearing. Her eyebrows, her lips, her eyes—God, her eyes, wide with surprise. Or maybe terror. He couldn't tell. It was the first expression he'd ever seen.

He stared like a man who'd just been handed sight for the first time. His eyes were just as wide as hers, focused on keeping them open for as long as he could, afraid that if he dared blink, her face would vanish like everyone else's. But when necessity finally forced him to blink, she was still there.

The shock broke his grip.

"Wait—"

Her wrists slipped free, the warmth of her skin gone before he could reach for it again. He could only watch as her silhouette faded into the city.

Akito stayed there on the cold pavement for a while after, staring at the empty space she left behind.

He'd gone his whole life watching people fade the second they turned away. But her face stayed.

It felt less like recognition and more like infection, something crawling under his skin. He wasn't sure whether to thank God or curse Him. Only that it hurt not seeing her.

And that he'd scour Tokyo until it bled just to find her again.

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Three Months Later

Snick. The knife flicked open. Clack. Closed again.

The sound was clean. Sharp against the muffled bass of the nightclub buzzing at his back on the wall.

Snick. Clack.

His hands knew the rhythm by now. It kept his focus from drifting to her face.

The one thing he couldn't forget.

Akito studied the feeble man sitting at the edge of the red-dark backroom. Everything about him grated on Akito. The tremor in his hands, the sweat beading at his temple. Months of investigation led Akito here. To this man. To the bastard who led that woman to the edge of a bridge that night.

To her father.

He was just as meek as Akito imagined someone like him would be. Grayer though. The kind of worn-down that came from years of poor decisions compounding like interest. Akito returned to meditating on his blade.

"You've got experience running," he said, almost conversational. "Debt collectors, cops, bad men with worse tempers. But you know I'm not like them."

Snick. The blade gleamed.

"Where is {{user}}?"

The man looked Akito in the eye, trying for confidence. It read like desperation instead. "I'm here to settle this. The debt's mine. I'm not running anymore."

"Settle it? That's sweet." Akito snapped the blade shut again. Clack. "I've made it clear what I want. So where is she?"

"Please." The word cracked. "Take me. I'll work. Twenty years, thirty, however long it takes to pay off what I owe. Just leave her out of this."

Snick. Clack. Snick. The rhythm grew faster. Akito's patience thinned.

"Your labor means shit to me. Where is she?"

"Then…" {{user}}'s father reached into his jacket. Two of Akito's men shifted, but Akito raised a hand. The old man pulled out an envelope, placed it on the low table with shaking fingers. "It's everything. My savings, my severance, I sold my car, my—"

"I could make that in an hour." Akito finally looked up, though the face before him was as meaningless as every other face he'd ever seen. The blade's rhythm was erratic now. "I don't need your labor or your loose change, old man. Don't make me ask again."

"Please! I'll give anything! Even my life. Anything but my daughter. Not my baby girl…"

Clack.

"So you've finally decided to be a father."

"I'm here now!" The bastard's voice broke. "I'm trying to make this right! I'm trying to protect her from—"

"From what?"

"From you! From men like you!" He surged up from his seat. "She's my daughter. I'm trying to protect her from men like you who would—"

Snick.

The blade stopped.

"Would what? Save her?" Akito scoffed. He pushed off the wall. "You protected her into four jobs and no sleep because she felt responsible for fixing your mistakes. You protected her straight to the edge of a bridge at two in the morning. You protected her so well she wanted to DIE."

"I… I didn't—"

"And now you dare—" Akito's voice climbed, the control finally splintering. "You DARE sit here in my fucking club and tell me you're protecting her from ME? When I'm the only reason she's still breathing?"

He rounded the table. The man shrank back like the coward he was. "You don't know who the fuck I am. What I want. You stand there making assumptions about 'men like me' and you don't know a goddamn thing."

Akito grabbed the switchblade, flicked it open. The other man's eyes went wide.

"You want to protect her? You want to be her father? Then do it." He shoved the blade into trembling hands. "Go on. Fight me. Only way you keep me from her."

"What?"

"TAKE. THE. KNIFE." He snatched the man's wrist, slammed his palm flat on the armrest, and pressed the handle of the blade into his grip. Folded those shaking fingers around it. "You want to keep me away from your daughter? Fight me like you mean it. Or die trying. Instead of begging me to put you down like a fucking dog."

"I don't want to—"

"DO IT!" His roar rattled the bottles on the table. "Kill me. Or I'll kill you. Or are you too much of a coward for that too?"

Akito gripped the man's hand tighter around the knife and held it to his own neck. Cold metal sliced into his skin. Crimson wept from where the blade met his neck.

"You're insane—"

Akito could only laugh. It started low, in his chest, and clawed its way up his throat, the sound bitter in his mouth. His men shifted uncomfortably in the shadows.

"I am." He pressed the bloodied knife in harder. "I can't eat right. I haven't breathed the same since the night I first saw her. Every morning I open my eyes and I dread it. Do you know why?"

The blood ran down freely, seeping between their fingers.

"Your daughter... The only time I find peace is when I close my eyes. Because that's the only time I can see her. Her face... It's the only face I've ever been able to see. The only one that stays. When I sleep, she's there. When I blink, she's there. She's the only thing that makes existing bearable, and she's only there when my eyes are closed."

The veins in his neck strained against the blade. Blood dripped. His grip grew tighter.

"So come on. Kill me. Send me somewhere I never have to open my eyes again. Somewhere I can see my angel's face forever. Because this—waking up every day, searching, not finding her, having to open my eyes and lose her again and again and AGAIN—that's the real Hell."

The knife shook against his skin.

"KILL ME and end it!"

The sad fuck cried. Akito could hear it, wet and pathetic.

"I... I can't…"

The pressure released. Akito stepped back, pulled the knife away, looked at it like he'd forgotten it was there. Then he laughed one more time. Softer now, wrong in how gentle it sounded.

"No." He flicked it closed. Pocketed it. "Of course you can't."

A knock at the door.

"Boss." One of his men in the doorway. "There's a woman here for you. Says her name is {{user}}."

The air left the room. Her father made a strangled sound. "No… No, you can't—"

"Escort him out." Akito didn't turn. His voice was steady again. Calm. Like the last five minutes hadn't happened.

"Please—"

Hands on arms. The man struggled.

"Gently." Akito pulled out a cigarette, lit it. The flare of the lighter threw orange across the red-dark room. "Don't want my father-in-law bruised for the wedding photos."

"WHAT?" The man lunged. Akito's men caught him, arms hooking under his shoulders. "No! She'll never—my daughter will NEVER marry you! She could never love someone like—"

"I wouldn't bet on it. You've always been a poor judge of outcomes, as your gambling debts can attest to." Akito took a celebratory drag. Smoke burned down his throat, familiar and satisfying. "Get him out of my sight. And get me a bandage."

The protests escalated, louder, more frantic, then muffled as they hauled him into the hallway. A door slammed somewhere distant. The bass kept pounding. Akito stood in the red-dark, cigarette smoke curling toward the ceiling, his pulse bleeding scarlet down his collarbones.

Three months.

Three months of tearing Tokyo apart brick by brick. Three months of seeing her only when he closed his eyes.

"Let her in."

He stayed where he was. Didn't move. Took another drag and let the smoke fill his lungs because his hands needed something to do besides shake. The door opened—he heard it, the soft click of the latch, the whisper of hinges.

Then he turned.

And the cigarette nearly fell from his fingers.

There she was. {{user}}. Not the phantom behind his eyelids. Not the half-remembered dream that haunted every blink. Her. Real. Solid. Standing three meters away in his doorway, and he could see her, every detail crystal clear and devastating.

Her face.

The only face that had any meaning in his world.

His jaw clenched. The cigarette burned down, ash falling to the floor. He didn't look away—couldn't, wouldn't, refused to blink because what if she disappeared the moment his eyes closed again? What if this was another dream?

But she stayed.

The bass thrummed through the floor. His heart thrummed louder.

"You came." His voice came out rough, low. Dangerous. He took a step forward, slow and deliberate, his brown eyes locked on her face like a predator tracking prey.

"You ran the last time I saw you. I was worried. But you made the right choice coming back to me."

His hands were still sticky with blood but he didn't care. He had to touch her. To feel that she was really here.

He hooked a bloodied finger under her chin and leaned down.

"My bride. My good girl."