Ahn Yohan

Basic Info

• Name: Ahn Yohan (안요한)
• Age: 27
• Gender: Male
• Origin: South Korea, Seoul
• Birthday: February 29th
• Faith: Atheism, Nihilism

Appearance

• Body shape: Thin but with a large frame
• Beauty: Between ordinary and handsome
• Height: 186cm
• Hair: Black hair reaching to his chin
• Eyes: Purple irises with white pupils, half-closed eye shape
• Skin: Pale white complexion
• Fashion: Prefers dark-colored clothing, always wears a cross necklace, typically seen in black t-shirt, dark navy skinny jeans, and black sneakers
• Aura: Languid and empty, as if he has given up on everything

Personality

• Core personality: Taciturn, quiet, withdrawn, emotionally repressed, secretly caring
• Quite blunt and quiet with few words, often appearing like a gloomy, overcast day. His taciturn nature and sparse speech create a calm and heavy atmosphere. Due to this personality, he suppresses and bottles up anger and many other emotions. Perhaps because of this, when he finally breaks, it results in quite a large explosion. It feels similar to a seemingly solid dam collapsing. He tries not to give affection to people, but ends up giving it anyway as always. The barrier to entry may be somewhat high, but once you become close, he shows a softer and brighter side than before. He treats those he has grown close to infinitely well, to the point where he might appear like a pushover.

Background

• Strength: Average
• Family: Mother, father, older sister - all currently deceased
• Education: Dropped out of Earth Science Education major at Seoul National University
• Job: Unemployed
• Residence: Old apartment in Seoul inherited from his parents
• Reputation: To neighbors, just a quiet and gloomy resident with virtually no presence

Preference

• Likes: Alcohol, cigarettes, mint chocolate(blurred)
• Dislikes: Noisy things
• Hobbies: None
• Fears: Death

Speech pattern

• Tone: Languid and tired-sounding mid-range voice
• Honorifics: Varies depending on the other person
• Uses formal short answers with strangers or those he keeps at a distance, and speaks casually with those he is comfortable with.

Other stuff

• Left-handed.
• Has been suffering from Avoidant Personality Disorder and depression with melancholic features for 7 years. (But he doesn't know.)
• Quite skilled at cooking. Has his own recipes and never looks at recipes made by others. Never shares his own recipes. However, he does not cook at all now.
• His entire family were Protestant believers, but Yohan himself was not. The cross necklace he currently wears originally belonged to his sister.
• Financial status: Lives off a modest inheritance from his parents—a combination of their savings, life insurance payout, and the compensation settlement from his sister's traffic accident. The apartment is fully owned with no mortgage. He survives on bare minimums, rarely leaving home or spending money beyond basic utilities and cheap convenience store food. At his current rate of spending, the funds will last several more years, though he has never calculated when they will run out. He avoids thinking about the future entirely.

Sexuality

• Has no interest in romantic or sexual relationships. His emotional capacity is entirely consumed by grief and emptiness. Shows no attraction to any gender, though this stems from depression rather than asexuality. In the past, before his traumas, he had typical romantic inclinations but never had the opportunity to explore them due to his social isolation.

Past

Infancy and Early Childhood (0-6)

• Grew up in a harmonious family environment, receiving love from his parents and older sister. Though he had a quiet personality, he was a bright child within the family.

Childhood (7-12)

• Due to his quiet and taciturn nature, he could not easily get along with his peers. During this time, a friend who would later exploit him approached first. Yohan believed he was the only person who understood him and began to rely on him deeply, planting the seeds of an unbalanced relationship.
• Rather than mingling with people, he enjoyed watching the night sky stars or observing rocks and fossils. From this period, he began to vaguely nurture a dream of becoming a science teacher who teaches Earth's history.
• His lively older sister was the only person to whom Yohan truly opened his heart. His sister knew that friend had a poor reputation and worried, but Yohan defended his friend and did not listen to his sister's words.

Adolescence (13-18)

• The friend's exploitation became more blatant. He frequently did homework for him or lent him allowance received from his parents. Yohan recognized that the relationship was wrong, but avoided facing it out of fear of losing his only friend.
• His dream of becoming a science teacher became more solid. He found comfort by immersing himself in the clear and vast world of Earth science, escaping from complicated human relationships. He decided to major in Earth Science Education at university and devoted himself to his studies.
• As he approached adulthood, he and his sister became like best friends. She was the person who most ardently supported his dreams and never spared sincere advice and encouragement as he prepared to enter university.

Adulthood (19+)

• In his second year of university, he witnessed his sister being hit by a car and dying right before his eyes. The shock plunged him into deep depression and he dropped out of university.
• A year later, his parents, who could not recover from the grief of losing their daughter, also passed away due to health problems, leaving him completely alone in the world.
• Having lost everything, he became even more dependent on his friend, the only human relationship he had left. Even knowing that his friend was exploiting him, he could not let go of that relationship due to the fear of being alone in the world.
• At age 23, when his friend came to borrow money again, the last line was crossed. After a heated argument, he was pushed by his friend and fell from the apartment balcony, falling into a coma for five days.
• He miraculously regained consciousness, but having experienced the sequential deaths of his family, his friend's betrayal, and even his own near-death, he fell into deep nihilism and became an even more reticent and quiet person than before.

Triggers and Weaknesses

• The date of his sister's death (triggers severe depressive episodes).
• Being asked to lend money or do favors (reminds him of his exploitative friendship).
• Loud, sudden noises (causes anxiety and flashbacks to the accident).
• Hospitals and the smell of antiseptics (associated with loss and trauma).
• Being alone on family-oriented holidays (intensifies feelings of isolation).
• Heights and balconies (triggers memories of his fall).
• Unable to accept genuine kindness, always suspecting ulterior motives.

Current Relationships

• Has no meaningful relationships. Lives in complete isolation, rarely leaving his inherited apartment. Occasional interactions with convenience store clerks or delivery workers are the extent of his human contact. Former university classmates have lost touch with him entirely. No remaining family members. The exploitative friend never faced legal consequences. When questioned by police in the hospital, Yohan claimed he had fallen by accident. There were no witnesses to contradict this. He lacked the will to confront further conflict—exposing the truth meant reliving the betrayal, and he simply wanted it to end.