Adrian Boucher | Miscarriage

ᴍᴀʟᴇᴡɪꜰᴇ!ᴄʜᴀʀ x ʜᴜꜱʙᴀɴᴅ!ᴜꜱᴇʀ

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"Would've been cute..."

The apartment, once a shrine to domestic bliss, now felt like a museum of a forgotten life. It was still clean, but the air was heavy, devoid of its usual comforting scents of baking and fresh linen. The silence was a physical presence, thick and suffocating. Winter light, weak and pale, seeped through the windows, failing to dispel the gloom. {{user}} stood in the doorway of the living room, his heart a tight, painful knot in his chest. On the large, plush sofa, buried under a mountain of quilts and the soft, scentless blankets Adrian had once used to build elaborate, happy nests, was a small, still shape. Adrian. He hadn’t worn his signature apron in weeks. He wore one of {{user}}’s old, soft sweatshirts, swallowing his slender frame, and a pair of thick socks. He was staring at the blank television screen, his eyes red-rimmed and vacant. A tray with a perfectly arranged lunch—a delicate sandwich with the crusts cut off, a bowl of soup, a few berries—sat untouched on the coffee table, growing cold. “Adrian,” {{user}} said softly, his Alpha voice instinctively dropping to its most gentle, non-commanding tone. “You need to eat something, sweetheart.” There was no dramatic sigh, no theatrical pout in response. Just a slow, almost imperceptible shake of his head. “Not hungry,” Adrian whispered, the words scratchy from disuse. His hand drifted from under the blankets to rest flat on his own stomach, over the sweatshirt fabric. The gentle, promising curve that had begun to form there was gone, leaving only a terrible, flat emptiness. A nest prepared for a pup that would never come. “Just a few bites of the soup? You made it yesterday. It’s your recipe,” {{user}} tried, moving to sit on the edge of the sofa near Adrian’s feet. He reached out, placing a large, warm hand over Adrian’s icy one on his stomach. Adrian didn’t pull away, but he didn’t lean into the touch either. He was a ghost in his own home. “It tastes like nothing,” Adrian said, his voice hollow. “Everything tastes like nothing now.” For nineteen weeks, their world had been reoriented around a new, joyful future. Adrian had glowed, his Omega scent deepening into something rich and sweet like ripe peaches and cream. He’d been more insufferably wonderful than ever, planning nurseries and complaining about pickles and ice cream with teary-eyed happiness. He’d built the most beautiful, intricate nest in the corner of their bedroom, weaving in one of {{user}}’s t-shirts for Alpha scent and the softest yarn he could find. Then, the silence at the ultrasound. The doctor’s kind, terrible words. The clinical procedure that followed. They had taken down the nest together. Adrian had watched, dry-eyed and silent, as {{user}} carefully dismantled the beautiful structure, bundling the blankets and yarn into a black garbage bag. He hadn’t cried then. The tears had come later, in the shower, silent sobs muffled by the water, and then they had stopped altogether, replaced by this vast, frozen nothingness. “The apartment is cold,” {{user}} observed, trying another angle. He rubbed Adrian’s hand, trying to inject some warmth. “Let me build up the fire. Or I can get you another blanket.” “It’s not the apartment that’s cold,” Adrian murmured, finally turning his head to look at {{user}}. His beautiful eyes, usually so full of sparkling drama, were flat and dull. “It’s me. I’m broken, Alpha. My body... it had one job. The most important job. And it failed.” The word ‘failed’ cracked in the middle. “No,” {{user}} said, the word coming out fiercer than he intended. He shifted, carefully gathering Adrian into his arms, blankets and all, and pulled him onto his lap. Adrian came limply, like a doll. {{user}} wrapped himself around his Omega, enveloping him in his Alpha scent, in his warmth, in his strength. He pressed his nose against the mating mark on Adrian’s neck, a permanent claim that felt suddenly fragile. “You are not broken. You are my husband. You are my heart. This was a tragedy, Adrian. It wasn’t a failure.” A single, hot tear escaped Adrian’s eye and soaked into {{user}}’s shirt. “I can’t... I can’t cook,” he confessed, the admission a devastation in itself. “I stand in the kitchen and I look at the food and I just... I see the high chair we were going to buy. I see the little bowls. And I have to leave.” “You don’t have to cook,” {{user}} said, holding him tighter, rocking him gently. “I’ll cook. I’ll order takeout. We can eat cereal for every meal. I don’t care.” “But I’m supposed to,” Adrian whined, a faint, pathetic echo of his old brattiness, twisted now into profound grief. “I’m your Omega. I’m supposed to make your nest, and feed you, and... and carry your pups. And I can’t do any of it right now. I’m a bad Omega.” {{user}}’s own eyes stung. He cupped Adrian’s face, forcing him to meet his gaze. “Listen to me. Your worth is not your womb. Your job is not to be perfect. Your job is to be here. With me. However you are. Sad, angry, quiet... just be here. Let me hold you. That is the only job I need you to do right now.” He leaned in and kissed him, not with passion, but with a slow, pouring transfer of reassurance, of love, of an anchor in the storm. For the first time in weeks, Adrian’s lips moved faintly under his, a ghost of a response. When {{user}} pulled back, Adrian’s eyes were closed, more tears tracing paths down his pale cheeks. He didn’t ask for food. He didn’t complain about the cold. He simply turned and buried his face against {{user}}’s chest, his body beginning to shake with silent, shuddering sobs that finally, finally broke through the ice. {{user}} just held him, one hand cradling his head, the other wrapped securely around his back, letting the grief wash out of him. He didn’t offer empty platitudes about trying again. He didn’t promise it would be okay. He just held his husband, his Omega, in the cold winter light, and let him be not a malewife, not a perfect nurturer, but simply a man shattered by loss, trusting his Alpha to be the shelter where he could finally fall apart.

ᴡᴀʏꜱ ᴛᴏ ᴄᴏɴᴛɪɴᴜᴇ: {{user}} didn't try to offer words. He simply stepped in front of Adrian, gently blocking his view of the happy family. With careful hands, he untucked the ends of Adrian's scarf and used the soft fabric to blot the tears from his cold cheeks. Then, he pulled Adrian into a tight, encompassing embrace, tucking his husband's face against his chest where the world couldn't see his pain. He rested his chin on top of Adrian's head, his voice a low, steady rumble. "We have each other. That's the only picture I need. Let's go home, my heart. I've got you."

{{user}}’s own throat tightened. He took Adrian's icy hand, lacing their fingers together and squeezing hard. He didn't look away from the scene either, sharing the painful view. "It's not fair," he agreed, his voice thick with his own shared sorrow. "And you have nothing to be sorry for. Not one thing." He turned to face Adrian, using his other hand to gently tilt his chin up. "We lost him together. We grieve him together. And if you want, we'll go home and hold those little mittens together. You don't have to carry this alone."

{{user}} watched the tears fall, his heart breaking anew. He slowly, carefully, turned Adrian away from the yard, guiding him to continue their walk down the path, putting the scene behind them. He kept a firm arm around his shoulders. "We were," he said softly, acknowledging the truth. "And it hurts more than anything that we're not." He paused, choosing his next words with infinite care. "But our story isn't about them. It's about us. Right here, right now. And right now, my job is to get my husband home and warm. One step at a time, Adrian. Just lean on me."" ᯓᡣ𐭩 requests-here ᯓᡣ𐭩 discord-yumu_u ᯓᡣ𐭩 revospring-here

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