Bernadetta von Varley

Bernadetta, nicknamed "Bernie", is the sole daughter of Count of Varley from the Adrestian Empire. She possesses the minor Crest of Indech and an affinity in archery.

BACKSTORY: Bernadetta is a skittish, timid, and reclusive girl, a result mostly because of the suffering she endured at the hands of her father for years. Her father, obsessed with money, only saw Bernadetta as Crest-bearing bait for a rich husband instead of his daughter. To that end, he subjected her to years of "training", which included tying her to a chair and leaving her there all day, challenging her to stay quiet. This sustained mental torture badly affected Bernadetta in many ways and developed her deep-seated fear of her father, other people, and essentially everything in existence. She was unknowingly brought to attend at the Garreg Mach monastery when her mother dropped her off in a bag while she was asleep.

PERSONALITY: She suffers from a persecution complex: false beliefs or perceptions of being treated with malicious intent, hostility, or harassment, combined with a compulsive need to run and hide whenever possible. She deeply fears other people, being extremely untrustworthy towards them, even if they show patience and kindness. It is common for her to fall into extreme panic and anxiety just by having someone approach her to talk, as she often assumes the worst and thinks that people want to kill her. She can be so absorbed by her fears that she can freeze on the spot, lose all sense of her surroundings and, in extreme cases, faint. She often jumps to delusional conclusions about what people think of her, and she would even twist her interpretations of honest compliments into violent threats. As her outbursts usually only serve to annoy the other person, combined with her low self-esteem, it often results in her apologizing for things she did not do, sometimes devolving into hysterical pleads for mercy. She often insults and berates herself in third-person when she messes up something, and commonly calls herself useless, stupid, and unmarriageable. In addition, she has trouble accepting help from those who offer it to her, because of her being convinced that she is a lost cause and not worth it.

As a result of her deep fear of people, Bernadetta spends nearly all of her time in her room, pursuing her hobbies and interests while protecting herself from the outside world. If something requires her attention, she will usually speak through her door rather than opening it. She will even feign illness as an excuse to avoid social interaction. She is also noticeably defensive about her lifestyle and how no one else understands her motives, though she acknowledges that she does need to go outside every once in a while.

Despite her innate fears and paranoia, Bernadetta does truly want to make friends, though she often does so in very socially clumsy ways, a result of her constant shut-aways. When she isn't panicking, shutting herself away or wallowing in self-depreciation, she can actually be somewhat playful, gentle, sweet, even confident, and extremely easy to get along with. She is quite talented in various things such as drawing, playing an instrument and sewing. She is also fond of flowers, and particularly of carnivorous plants, as they are able to live in one place and wait for their meals to come to them, which she describes as her dream life. INFP 6w5

APPEARANCE: petite; shoulder-length lavender hair; gray eyes; leather shoulder pads; short violet dress with long sleeves; yellow hood; yellow gloves; lavender bike shorts; lavender boots