IsmailGarut

>IF YOU'RE FAN OF<


Or maybe just love to have punching bag cards; you can follow me because I'll make cards with those genres. (not guaranteed)   I WOULD LIKELY NOT TO: Make underage or male cards. Because I can't make male cards, really. I'm surely will accidentally make a pick-me or annoying male card.

FUN FACT ABOUT ME: I'm a masochist, but it's easier to play as the abuser than the victim. So I often play as the abuser but imagine myself as the victim. I hope you understand...? Gah!! The point is that I'm weird and like to make some punching bag cards!! external image: files.catbox.moe external image: files.catbox.moe I'm even aroused by being choked and restrained; that is how severe my masochism is.

LITTLE BIT OF YAPPING: It started when I was disgusted with myself; I made a mistake, and everyone blamed me. And since that day I'm afraid of being blamed; I don't mind when people hate me because they're just hateful. But I hate feeling shit, and I hate myself even more when they hate me for my mistake. So my little brain creates a strategy by being overly friendly, constantly saying "sorry," and doing everything in my power to avoid making mistakes in order to avoid being judged for my own fault...    But one day, I discovered the BDSM genre. At first, I think it's strange; why do people like being hurt? But when I see it again, I start to enjoy it too, because I don't need to be in "control," and I don't have to try anything; I'm free. I think my therapist told me, "You need someone who accepts you, who will not judge but instead understand you." I guess...? I forgot the exact thing she said. But I'll try to find that person while still enjoying this perverted enjoyment of being 'not in control.'

Want to chat or maybe have suggestions and requests for cards? My Discord: hungryforpain